Kintsukuroi_ Chapter-14

 



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Chapter-14

“Why are you so against going back?” Janardan questioned softly as he stepped into the room after the fateful phone call, coming to perch next to Jayna on the bed.

“Because it’s horrible!” Jayna confessed, turning so she could bury her face against the alpha’s shoulders. She felt the alpha stiffen and swallowed convulsively to try and explain her position.

“And- and I know that it’s your home.” She added haltingly through hiccups, “But that place took away Adam from me... and I- I...I’m scared Janardan... What if we go there again and I lose my baby?”

“Sshhh... its okay, I get it.” The alpha comforted, thumbs gently wiping at the tears that had leaked out. “Your fear is real, but you need to get past it and think of Ben, alright? He has to lead that pack someday... shouldn’t he at least be familiar with his people?”

Jayna nodded morosely as she peered tearfully up at him.

“And you’ll have me, alright? I’m going to protect your boy. And you, of course. ... Nothing and no one is going to be able to get you without going through me first, okay? I promise. ...I- I’ll die before I let anything hurt you two.”

Don’t want to lose you either... Jayna almost told him, but held her tongue. After all, it would be inappropriate: Janardan was supposed to be just her guard, not her friend.

“Why do you look like you’ve swallowed a lemon?” Janardan asked, interrupting her silent musing.

“I have to wear an eff-ing collar again,” She admitted with a grimace, choosing to reveal one of her worries about returning to Pack-lands without confessing to her actual thoughts.

“That’s-”Janardan started, then paused, frowning as he regarded the omega contemplatively, “Wait, I have an idea.  You still have some of Adam’s old stuff, right?”

The omega nodded.

“Will it be okay if I cut it up?”

Jayna bit her lip considering, but eventually nodded her assent.

“Do you remember which perfume he liked?”

Jayna went to her dresser and wordlessly pulled out a bottle of Old Spice that she kept hidden- only bringing it out when she missed Adam too much, something that was becoming rarer as time passed-  and offered it to Janardan.

“Thanks,” The alpha accepted, “Give me a few days, okay?”

The next weekend, Janardan shyly offered her a soft braided ‘collar’ made of strips torn from Adam’s clothes and drenched in the perfume.  “Will this collar be acceptable, ‘Mega-heir?”




Jayna felt her eyes tear up as she regarded the soft contraption- it was nothing like the unwieldy collar Adam has bestowed upon her on her last visit. She had never imagined that a collar could be anything but a degrading sign of ownership, but as she turned the soft, scented material over in her hands, she could see the tiny row of eye-hooks sown carefully into the material at adjustable lengths and couldn’t deny the functionality of the item. Unable to force words past her choked throat, she could only nod as she accepted the unexpected kindness and pulled the alpha in for a spur-of-the-moment hug.

 Three weeks later, Jayna was not smiling as she tugged at the collar - again - as she tried to get used to its feeling against the skin of her throat. Sighing, she let it go and relaxed back against the seat; glanced at her watch absently and pulled a face when she noticed that only fifty-nine minutes of the original ninety were left from when she would be that much closer to her hated destination.

Janardan appeared to be relaxed in the seat next to hers while Ben was conveniently immersed in one of his comic-books and Jayna couldn’t help but think back to how different the last time had been seven years ago when the three of them had been making this journey- back then, Janardan was the nervous one, away from his pack for the first time, while Jayna had been relaxed and eager for home. Now she was all jittery nerves while Janardan was going ‘home’.

A warm palm curving over her left right knee stilled the nervous bouncing of her legs, “Sshhh... it’ll be okay, you’ll see. It’s not even two weeks, ‘Mega. Ten days will pass in a blink.”

Jayna exhaled noisily, nodding as she reluctantly faced the man at her side, finally giving voice to the nightmare that had been haunting her ever since the phone call demanding they visit: “What if something goes wrong?”

“I promise, I’ll make sure you and Master Ben will be boarding the return flight back home if it’s the last thing I do,” The alpha reiterated his vow.

“Thank you,” Jayna whispered. Then, after a minute confessed “They don’t like me much, you know, Adam’s parents...”

“They are fools, then.” Janardan interrupted emphatically. “You are accomplished and educated far more than anyone in the pack- I don’t think even Alpha Baid has as many degrees as you, and he was late-Alpha heir Adam’s tutor! And despite all your accomplishments, you are kind. But most importantly, you are a wonderful parent to Ben. You have nothing to worry about, ‘Mega-heir. They will love you.”

Jayna blinked, taken aback by the earnestness of Janardan’s compliment and felt her cheeks warm with a pleased flush even as she protested: “But I don’t know your traditions...”

“You were not raised here, ‘Mega. So it’s no wonder that you don’t know. ... But you still try to uphold as many of them as you know and you keep trying to learn more. That means a lot.”

“...”

“Look, you want my help? I mean... would it help if I told you about what to do in some situations? Like for instance when you were required to act more traditionally and stuff?” The alpha asked when Jayna kept quiet.

Hazel eyes jumped up to meet the green gaze hopefully, “Would you?”

 “Of course,” The warrior agreed readily. He bit his lip as he considered something and turned to face her again, “Okay, why don’t you and Ben do traditional the ‘pranam’ when we reach? That ought to start you off on a good foot.” [pranam= pay respects/seek blessings, usually a greeting when meeting someone elderly or one who commands great respect]

Jayna nodded, then nudged her son, “Benny.”

The almost-teenager looked up from his comic, “Yes, Mama?”

“Listen to this, it’s important.” Jayna told him as she glanced back at Janardan, gesturing for the warrior to continue.

“Well, pranam is just respectful gesture... You touch your right bicep with your left fingertips and then bend and touch your right hand to the feet of the person you’re greeting before raising it and brushing it over your head. Ideally, the person would respond by patting your head as they murmur a blessing or pull you in for a hug. ... sometimes they might ask you to wait till they remove their footwear and stand before they’ll let you seek their blessing.”

“And I can greet everyone this way?” Jayna clarified.

“Only those elder to you or those in a position of authority over you...”

At the omega’s befuddled expression, Janardan explained further: “Well, since you are Heir Adam’s mate, you will only bow to his parents. You greet everyone else by joining your palms and nodding you head once. Ben can greet his grandparents and uncles-”

“and you.” The boy added.

“No!” Janardan’s eyes widened in horror, “You must never greet me that way. In fact, I think it would be best if you limit your interactions with me while we’re on Pack grounds, Kiddo.”

“But why, Da?” The child countered, “You’re my teacher- in a way- and teachers are equal to God.”

Janardan swallowed, his adam’s apple bobbing visibly as his eyes moistened. “You humble me, baeta ... but please don’t do anything like that...” [baeta=son]

Jayna’s brows furrowed as she regarded the warrior, the man looked honestly worried and something about the expression unsettled her. She glanced towards her boy and noticing the ill-concealed mischief in his eyes, guessed that the kid was planning something. The warrior obviously thought the same but didn’t know how to stop the kid. Frowning, she decided to get to the bottom of the matter. “Janardan... What- what is going to happen if Ben does seek your blessings with a traditional pranam?”

“I would be chastised for acting above my station.”

“Chastised,” Jayna repeated sardonically: somehow, Janardan’s reaction did not fit in with a verbal dressing down- even a public one if it came to that.

“Flayed,” The alpha whispered, voice soft enough that it wouldn’t carry to Ben.

Jayna felt her breathe escape in a hiss and could only stare at the alpha for an interminable minute- had their positions been reversed, she wouldn’t have had the wherewithal to lower her voice for Ben’s innocent ears if faced with such a threat. Clearing her throat  and swallowing rapidly to get her saliva flowing again, she turned to her son seriously: “Benny, this is serious, okay? You absolutely cannot include Janardan in the list of people you pay your respects to; not- not while we are on Packlands. The rules are different here and people might take offence.”

“But-”

“No buts,” Jayna overruled, then sighed as she realized that she would need to reason with her son instead of expecting him to just go with what she said. “Look, you like Janardan, right? So what you do reflects on him... and if they think that your behaviour is incorrect or you break tradition, they may not allow Janardan to return home with us. You don’t want that to happen, do you?”

She felt a little bad for lying to the boy, but didn’t want to explain to the child that his mentor would be flayed alive if his grandfather was offended by his attachment to the man; besides, she reasoned  to herself, that if they could whip Janardan, they could very well force him to stay back.

“I’ll be good, I promise.” The boy murmured and the frightened look on her baby’s face almost broke her, but she needed to be strong now and so Jayna just ruffled his hair and accepted his assurance.

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Time seemed to have stood still in the quaint hamlet that her late husband hailed from, and Jayna could feel her stomach tying itself in knots as she returned to the place that had taken the love of her life from her. Janardan was a pillar of strength by her side and Jayna found herself grateful for the warrior’s grounding presence. Her in-laws greeted her warmly and were visibly enamoured by Ben. For his part, the boy revelled in the adulation and Jayna felt herself relax slightly.

She noticed the appreciative glances Janardan received as he carried their bags to what was to be their room for the duration of their stay and smothered a smile: the last these people had seen of the warrior had been a leanly muscled man in ill-fitting clothes. Now, Janardan looked fitter and carried himself taller. He was still slender, but regular diet had given his form proper definition... besides, the well-worn, but fitted denims and shirts in proper size did their bit as well and Jayna felt proud of how far the man had come from his days as a mere Guard.

She was sure that, contrary to the warrior’s expectations, Janardan would be treated with the respect that was his due; but received a rude shock when she realized that the man was not even allowed to dine at the same table as them. In hindsight it explained the alpha’s initial hesitation over joining them at meal-times and his gratefulness when Jayna had cooked for him (even for the meals she had ruined on purpose during their initial months together). Her in-laws treated the man like a servant (or worse, a slave) and while Jayna felt bad, she didn’t know how to help Janardan unless the man helped himself. Unfortunately, Janardan accepted all the little indignities heaped upon him as his due while Jayna stewed silently.

Things took a turn for worse when Ben accidentally shattered an antique idol the day after arriving and the patriarch decreed that he must be punished for his offence.

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Chapter-15



Earlier Parts:  PrologueChapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter-3Chapter 4Chapter 5 - Chapter 6-

Chapter 7Chapter 8Chapter 9 - Chapter-10 - Chapter-11Chapter-12- Chapter-13


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